I Need More Focus

I have just realised that I haven't posted for a few days :/ . . . Oh dear!


I think a problem I have - this is in general not just with my blog - is that I am lazy. I just don't have enough ambition. I want to have a successful blog. I would love people to read what I have to say and think "Oh Em Gee this is awesome" and some other bullshit phrase but, I just can't be arsed! I say to my self, "Why isn't my blog page successful?" and then I realise that I have only written two posts so far so what was I expecting? Also I will come across as very self absorbed because I assume that everyone will be interested in what I have to say and therefore, I will only post what I want to talk about and will not consider what other people may enjoy - like this post. 


In all honesty this post is completely fucking trivial. I am only posting it to get more "hits" and it gives me an excuse to talk to myself, about myself and pretend that it is some form of work so I don't feel guilty about wasting time. So just to reassure all my fans to be out there, I will dedicate at least 2 hours a day to writing a minimum of one post which will most likely suck but I will feel less guilty this way.


Hopefully some focus will find its way to me...